The Last Straw.

This plea is a direct Turtle – English translation from the account of David the Turtle. If you have any queries for David the Turtle, you can access him through myself, his manager, at elizabethsarah@gmail.com. If you wish to donate in response to David the Turtle’s plea, go to www.savetheturtles.org

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      • Yes.
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Transcript, begin:

I liked my Ocean, I think is what you Human’s call it. We call it Shhwsh because that’s sound it makes. I like being in Shhwsh with Nellie and Lily and Sally and Michelle and… [Translators Note: The names listed are the names we gave to the Turtles. The names used by David the Turtle are native to his language. We are unable to translate them. The list continues for some considerable time.] They went off to the yellow rocky place – beach? –  we call it Crshhh – to lay eggs and come back with little Me’s. We need smaller Me’s because there less and less and less of us every day. We dyin’. Cos of – what you call it – tasplic – no – plastic! Yes, yes, plastic!

We dyin’ coz of plastic.

Big big BWAHHH’s [See Glossary.] come in our Shhwsh and drop big big plastic. In our home! Some of the plastic even bigger than our leader! When we smells them coming – they leave bad smell that makes us ill – we panic and hide, but the Humans on BWAHHH be mean and have twisted faces that go, “Ha ha ha!” as they still drop plastic.  They not like Lizzie. She nice and help us when plastic hurt us.

BWAHHH Humans no care. No care when Ozzy has straw up nose and red stuff that tastes like metal coming out of it and he can’t swim or breathe. Lizzie pull it out and heal him. Lizzie nice.

Lizzie can no help us all. We all hungry. Not enough al— algy— algae? Not ‘nough squishy stuff for us to chomp. Or we start eating plastic. Then my friends get skinny. They stop talk. Stop swim. They start to float away away away. But the BWAHHH keep coming coming coming.

When Nellie and Lily and Sally and Michelle and… [Translator’s note: List shortened for convenience.] come back with little Me’s they go, “Shief! [See Glossary.] Where is everyone?” and we point at plastic and at big BWAHHHs that go, “BWAHHH.” And all our empty shells. Floating.

Mickey came to me one day. With plastic around his neep [See Glossary.] He wear it like Lizzie wear the shiny thing around her neep. Hers prettier. Mickey’s hurt him. Lizzie cut it off and feed Mickey squishy stuff.

Leader comes to us. “The little Me’s are dying,” he says.

“Why?” I says.

“They eat plastic.” Leader says.

You Humans even kill little Me’s. What if I fed little You’s plastic?

Lizzie and friend Humans on small BWAHHH’s come and take little Me’s. It sad. We all sad. But they promise they help little Me’s live. Give good squishy stuff to eat and no plastic.

Yesterday, they came again on their big BWAHHHs, and threw more and more and more plastic into Shhwsh. There was definitely more of it this time. A great big piece – bigger even than great Leader – landed on Michelle, on her head. She fell under the water, which is fine, coz we can swims, but she came back up floating. The blue Shhwsh around her; red.

The whales – Lizzie calls ‘em whales – sang. A deep, low, song, that vibrates through Shhwsh. To us. To Michelle. To the rest of the floating shells. Their song blocks out our sadness, for a while.

But it could not drown out the cries of our Leader.

He starved. Not enough algae. Too much plastic. Our Leader, dead, noone left to guide us. Noone left to guide us through our end.

This is why am asking you Humans for help, why Lizzie told me to say this ‘plea’. We dyin’. We has no leader. We has no little Me’s. We no meant to wear plastic round neeps or up nose. Shhwsh no meant to be red. We no meant to starve on Human plastic.

Please help us. We no understand. What we did wrong?

Why are you doing this?

Transcript end.

Glossary:

BWAHHH – Boat. [Closest translation.]

Crshh – Beach.

Neep – Neck. [Closest translation.]

Shhwsh – Ocean.

Shief – Fuck.

By Isabel Tyldesley.

The Little Yellow House

The Ginger Man with colours in his hair is an odd man – I assume. A lonely man. A sad man. He paints all the time, but why? His creations lie on my floor, ignored. He leaves me bare and naked. Exposed, isolated. Like he doesn’t want to connect with me.

          But he spends so much time with me.

          It’s the same all through the repeated light and all through the repeated dark: he wakes, cries, paints, drinks, cries, sleeps, wakes, cries, paints, drin—

          “Vincent!” a shrill voice says. The Ginger Man rolls his eyes in my small Sitting Room as she barges through my small Hallway, ever so careless that her heavy footsteps bruise me. She didn’t even ask my permission to enter! He kicks an empty bottle under the bed before she marches in and hangs her shawl on the back of the Ginger Man’s one chair.

          “Vincent, darling, wonderful news – I’ve found you a roommate!” The woman looks at him, eyes full of expectation. The Ginger Man’s back slumps and he turns away. Her eyes spy the bottles under the bed and her tight-lipped mouth sighs in a rather exaggerated way. I repress a chuckle. Honestly, how did the Ginger Man not expect her to see them there?

          “Huh.” The Ginger Man, Vincent, she calls him, picks up a knife and begins scouring and scratching into the painting.

          “Hopefully he’ll make you stop that disgusting habit,” she says, watching the Ginger Man sceptically as he works.

          “The drinkin’ or the pain’in’?” The words slur out of his mouth; it’s obvious he’s drank more than the single bottle ‘hid’ under the bed. I should know. He smashed one on me. I try not to let it hurt my feelings.

          “Hm,” she looks around. “The Absinthe, of course dear. This fellow, he’s a painter, like you. A successful one!”

          “Noh’ like me then, is he?”

          She picks up her shawl. “Hm, yes, well, he likes sunflowers, by the way, so, um, why don’t you try brighten this place up a little? It’s such a pretty, nice little yellow house on the outside. It’s a shame to…” the woman looks around, eyebrows raised. What a back-handed compliment. She compliments my exterior and shuns my interior. Typical.

          “Mmm,” Vincent replies.

          “Well, I’ll be seeing you.”

The Nameless Woman turns and bruises my Hallway again before exiting.

          Vincent retrieves another bottle, cracks it open on my window sill and turns back to the paintings. He stares for a while. Ponders. Pops some dry paint into his mouth, throws his current painting onto my floor (without asking me to hold it for him) and turns to his tubes of colour. He looks at the yellow – the colour of my exterior.

          He swigs the ‘Absinthe’. “Sunflowers, eh?” He examines the bright colour and picks up a brush.

          The light and dark cycles change: he wakes, he paints, he still drinks, but he doesn’t cry. My Ginger Man fills my rooms with paintings of pointy flowers in oval vases. ‘Sunflowers’, they’re called. Yes. Sunflowers.

          He hammers something sharp into me, like how it felt when I was being born. I don’t mind, because after the pain he hangs the ‘Sunflowers’ onto me and stares ever so happily. Sometimes, the pain is worth it. Sometimes, you must suffer to see the beauty.

          A tap tap tap on my door. Vincent alters one last painting.

          “Hello, my friend! You must be Vincent!”

I watch as the New Man shakes Vincent’s hand in a firm grasp.

          “My, what an awful number of Sunflowers! They’re my favourite, you know?”

          “Oh, uh, really?” Vincent replies, readjusting the freshly potted sunflower on the window sill.

          “Such a pretty house!” Oh, well, thank you! “I think we’re going to have fun, you and I.”

          And so, they did.

          The repeated light and the repeated dark stay the same, but less lonely. My Ginger Man and the New Man wake up, they paint together, laugh together, talk together, drink Absinthe together. Paint, laugh, drink, more and more and more. They paint Café Terraces, and the Butcher’s Shop from across the street – no more Sunflowers, thankfully. But then, as the light becomes shorter, and the dark becomes longer, the laughter becomes arguing. The talking; yelling. The painting; fighting.

          “You’re just too difficult to please, Vincent!”

          “Huff. There’s no need to change how I paint. I like it.”

          “Well, we don’t, anymore!”

I assume by ‘we’, the New Man means his painting group. I’ve never seen them. I don’t care.

          “Good for you,” says my Vincent.

          “You need to move on with the times, Vincent, or you’re never going to sell paintings, you’re never going to make money. They’ll stop selling you Absinthe, you know, if you don’t catch up on your debts!” He kicks the empty bottles.

          “’Alf those bottles are yours, and I like my pain’in’ the way it is.”

          “What, shi—” he stops himself. My Ginger Man slumps his back and turns away, paintbrush clenched in one fist, bottle in the other.

          “I can’t keep supporting you like this. You’re mad. I’m leaving.”

          “Ha, Take your new style pain’in’s with yeh.”

          The New Man throws open my front door – ouch – and leaves. Good riddance. Me and my Ginger Man don’t need him—

          Vincent drops the paintbrush and charges out of my door, bottle still in hand.

          Where’s he going? Vincent? VINCENT? Only the Sunflowers hear my calls.

          Is he going to fight him? Confront him? The Absinthe makes him act weird. All… shakey and uncontrollable and and and and – not himself.

          My rooms get darker. And colder. A breeze flows in through my open door. Frost gathers on my little window. Vincent’s Sunflowers shiver.

          I feel a footstep, and my front door is closed.  Vincent, oh my Vincent.

          He collapses. Half the bottle – now smashed – is clenched in a red fist.

          Vincent? His body writhes and turns, hands pound the floor, a horrific shhrriiiieeeeeeeeeeekk leaves him, uncontrollable.

          “Why why why WHY did I do that? He’ll never come back now he’ll never he’ll never—” he cuts off with a shriek again that not only hurts him, but me, his friend, his pretty little Yellow House with red splodges on my floor.

          He kneels and lifts the broken bottle up to where his ginger beard and ginger hair meet. He shakes, sobs.

          Vincent, my Vincent, my Ginger Man, no don’t, DON’T—

          He hacks at his ear, again and again and again, until it drops. Covered with the same red splodges as my floor.

          He picks it up.

          “I’vegottogofind‘im.” My Ginger Man pushes himself up and stumbles away. Away from me. The repeated light and dark changes again: to nothing. To waiting. Just me and the pointy yellow flowers.

          The Sunflower on my window sill begins to wilt.

By Isabel Tyldesley.

Van Gogh’s Skull

Pain  ted Ladies

layer on the w  hit  e chalk,

pin  ks, yell   ows, greens,

pen  cil the eyes in black

and   dance the Macabre.

Painted La  dies

mo  oooan a cry as they para  de

with their fa  ces still

as a Russ  ian Doll’s.

Va  cant eyes stare—

they’re sc  ared of laugh   ter

in case their   cocoon cr

acks as their white wr

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les be  tray them.

Skirts billow aroun  d skele  tal ankles

to rev   eal a casket.

By Isabel Tyldesley.

This poem was inspired by that of ‘Skull‘ by Vincent Van Gogh, painted May 1887.

EARTH vs HUMANITY

The thrift shop crusader—

—metal straw sword,

tote bag shield—

battles to defend home

whilst you sit in the audience

soggy.

Mother Earth’s death certificate: signed.

A pair of jeans and a tee requires a kilo of cotton.

A kilo of cotton requires 20,000 litres of water.

There is an ocean in your wardrobe

but you want the seven seas.

By Isabel Tyldesley

You Will Never Find Love When You Are Looking For Love.

Finding Love is like finding your glasses.

You can never find your glasses when

you want them but when you do –

world perspective strengthens.

By Isabel Tyldesley.

Mount Romeo

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Pea

carrot orgy.

rlic bites me. Ibiteitback—

imb it. Ben Nevis vs Autumn King. Ga

le Dragon cries. Hercules smashed Olympus; I must cl

Oh, Romeo, Romeo, wherefore art thou eating me Romeo? The Purp

Photography – May 2019.

Dog Photography.

Duck Photography.

Portrait Photography.

Church Photography.

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How I Balance Fibromyalgia and Studying.

Shortly before I sat my A-Level exams, I began to lose use of my wrists – not completely, but enough. I couldn’t write for more than 10-minutes, and I could only do so slowly. This was an issue because 1) I’m a writer and 2) I had three-hour exams.

          Society often shames us into hushing-up our symptoms. At the time, I hadn’t been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. My answer to “What’s wrong with you?” was always a defensive, “Well, technically nothing, but—”. Despite having “technically nothing” wrong with me, I did what seemed to be impossible. I asked for help – something noone ever should never be afraid to. I was permitted to use a computer, which, although It still hurt my wrists, made exams much easier. And I came out with some pretty-damn-good grades.

    Now, I’m studying Creative Writing at University. It’s increasingly difficult to balance chronic illness with my studies. I was officially diagnosed with Fibromyalgia this January, and it’s around that time I got worse. Moreover, I was receiving no treatment. There’s no cure for Fibromyalgia – but there are ways to cope with it.

          I knew none of these ways.

        Fibromyalgia became my life. I knew nothing other than Fibromyalgia. It was like an elephant living inside my skull. Heavy. Too big to be there.  It’s still like that, but I’m learning ways to deal with it.

          Fibromyalgia effects studying in numerous ways. Here, I shall list the main ones and how I personally cope with it. It should be said, everyone experiences Fibromyalgia in different ways, and what works for some may not work for others.

          As said earlier in this post, it hurts to write. The muscles in my wrists are so weak, I struggle to put pen-to-paper for more than ten-minutes. This is particularly horrific as I’m a writer. I find it easier to type, but if I do it for too long, typing grows unbearable, too. Not to mention, I find it easier to work on paper – it’s clearer to think that way.

          I combat this issue in two ways. One: I take regular breaks. Not only does this help the pain, but it refreshes my brain. As a writer, you often get caught up in different worlds. Two: I use a wrist rest when typing. This keeps the wrists in a more neutral position, putting less strain on the muscles, consequently easing the pain.

          Another huge issue is the fibro-fog, or in other words: concentration. In fact, when writing this, I asked a friend, “What would you like to see in this post?” because I couldn’t think. They said, “How it affects concentration.” Touché.

          Again, one way I deal with this is to take regular breaks. If you can’t think, staring at the screen won’t help. So, stand up. Stretch. Take a short walk around your house. And then, resume. I always find when I do this, my fibro-fog induced writers-block disappears.

          When Fibromyalgia is so bad that I cannot think of anything else – which is sadly often – I write about it. That way, I get work done and I’m able to raise awareness it. And, sometimes, good comes of it. My recent article, ‘15 Things Fibromyalgia Really Is’ was actually published on The Mighty. So, if you don’t really know what it is – go check that out.

          If you’re out there, balancing Fibromyalgia with your studies, let me tell you this: I appreciate you. The fact you’re living with a chronic illness and putting yourself through pain to learn – you’re unbelievable. Don’t let the Fibro kick you down.

By Isabel Tyldesley.

Ronaldo of Ronaldo’s Fruit and Basket Stall.

Do you know where to go if you want to buy the best fruits and baskets in the whole damn world? Why, you go to Ronaldo at Ronaldo’s Fruit and Basket Stall, of course!

Ronaldo thinks he has a knack for business. You see, people need to eat, and people need to eat healthily. What food’s healthy? Fruit. So, people wanna buy fruit – you’ve gotta eat your five-a-day. But what if there’s five people in your house? That’s twenty-five Fruits. Noone has twenty-five hands – not even Ronaldo. So, people need something to carry the fruit. People need a basket. People buy Ronaldo’s baskets. It’s business at its finest.

And that’s why Ronaldo named himself Ronaldo. Because he thinks he’s the best at what he does; like Ronaldo. Which is fair on Ronaldo, because all the people want Ronaldo’s fruit in their baskets.

“Ooh!” all the people say. “Where did you get that fine basket?”

“I got this cute basket from Ronaldo at Ronaldo’s Fruit and Baskets!” At least, that’s what Ronaldo imagines they say.

Ronaldo sells the best fruit because it isn’t bruised. When you don’t have a basket, he says, your fruit gets bruised. There’s nothing worse than buying a tomato, only for your tomato to be juice and skin on the floor, Ronaldo says.

The Other Fruit Stall Vendors disagree with Ronaldo. They think Ronaldo brings shame to the Fruit Stall Market Corner. Who would bring a basket to an avocado fight? Only Ronaldo.

Ronaldo has to go.

The Other Fruit Stall Vendors get to the Fruit Stall Market Corner at 4am – two hours prior to opening – to set-up their wares into a fruity rainbow the public can’t help but want to taste. Ronaldo won’t be there until 6am. His bananas need no prep.

It’s 4am, and The Other Fruit Stall Vendors have a plan.

The Other Fruit Stall Vendors sneak over to Ronaldo’s Fruit and Basket Stall. Knives at the ready. They give each other a knowing, lingering glance. And set to work, cut holes in the bottoms of all Ronaldo’s baskets. Now, when Ronaldo throws all his pears in one basket, they’ll fall through. They’ll bruise. Maybe even… smash.

It’s 6am and the Market is ripe. A lady purchases one of Ronaldo’s melons for a healthy snack. Ronaldo drops the melon into the ladies freshly-holed basket. The melon falls. The melon rolls. Ronaldo sprints. Ronaldo tackles the melon. Ronaldo volleys the melon towards the lady. Ronaldo scores – right into her hands.

Ronaldo 1 – 0 The Other Fruit Stall Vendors.